Love yourself.

On off days, the mirror has been my worst enemy. There is no greater task than facing yourself. After all, we know ourselves the best and there is no hiding the truth. We may be able to pass a smile off to a friend but once you catch your image reflecting back towards you, the joke will ultimately be on you.

I hate to seem "depressed" as many would call it, but I find it a tad bit harder to look deeply at myself. Maybe I am just running from a truth that I am not ready to face. I can possibly have so many worries and concerns in my own life that I don't allow myself to take the time to look a little deeper. None the less, I have made a conscious decision to make the time to get to know myself again.

There is no greater friendship than the one you maintain with yourself. Many individuals allow life to take over and become so consumed with insignificance, that they ultimately lose the most important thing. They lose themselves.

I love myself enough to know that I matter. Other's may not share that same luxury.
Therefore, to whom ever can relate, be sure to make time for yourself. Try and find what inspired you once before. Go back to old passions, pursue them. Look at old pictures, go back to the memories which remind you of you. Search high and low. Eventually, the person that you are today will begin to make sense. You will start to nourish yourself, love yourself, and value your worth.

There is no greater love than the love for ones self. Many lose pieces of themselves throughout their journey in life. A loss is always a tragedy, but your tragedies can soon become your rebirth. Perseverance, determination and most importantly, patience will guide you to the real you.

" The most terrifying thing is to accept oneself completely"

Stupid is as stupid does.

I have become less patient these days. For whatever reason, I have very low tolerence for stupidity. I'm sure many can relate to me when I say that we are all surrounded by some type of stupidity. I have just chosen to eliminate the excess and have filled that enormous gap with positivity.

I am not claiming to be the brightest bulb. I too, on many occasions, have been known to pull the "Blondie card." I am not particularly proud, but I am aware.

I have come up with a plan to put an end to the none- sense in which many people are creating. ( beware, for my plans tend to offend many).

I say that we start calling people out on their "special" moments.

For example: Have a friend who never understands your jokes? Aside from the fact that maybe you're just not funny, let them know that they need to get their head out of the clouds.

If you know someone who can never follow directions. Ask them, daringly, if they have ever ridden the special yellow buses to school at one point in time. These are not offensive questions. Just genuine concerns.

We need to make these individuals aware of their time consuming tendencies. If we fail at awareness, then we fail entirely and we will be the ones to suffer.

I am done with the 20 min calls on how to find my house. Especially if they have been here 20 times. I am done trying to explain my humor and I am SO DONE wasting my precious time participating in ridiculous banter.

Get a clue people. Get some Knowledge.

"Stupidity is a killer. Do not allow yourself to fall victim"

Edwin

All my life I have always had this empty feeling within. I spent much time looking and searching for that one person who could show me what love really meant. I found that person in you.

There are many who have yet to experience what I am experiencing, and for that I am truly grateful for the luxury I have been blessed with.

You are my best friend, provider, biggest fan, worst critic, personal comedian, comfort blanket, reality check, protector, diary, and lover.

Who knew my smiles could be so genuine?

As I sit and think about where we were, and how far we have come, I am enlightened. I know that life has its plan for us. But I also know that together we can over come odds and make the unique Love that we possess live on even past our years.

Maybe there will not be a white picket fence and a home filled with children, but our home will be filled with love and memories in which we have made with one another. Memories which we hold dearly to our hearts.

At the end of the day my love, you have always been good for me. You will always feel good to me. In my eyes, you are home, and home is where the heart is.

I love you Edwin.

Impossible

Someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love. I was careless. Now that all is said and done I have learned one thing. Nothing is impossible.

For quite some time, my scars were left open. My past relationship trials had taken their toll on me. The damage was done, far beyond reconstruction, so I believed. Again, nothing is impossible.

They say "time" is the healer of all things. I beg to differ. With my experience, time only allows us to learn to live with the pain and scars life and love have marked us with. For a long while, I found comfort in "time". It took a short period of time for me to realize that time was no friend of mine. I no longer wanted to disguise the battle wounds. Instead, I have made the choice to embrace my bumps and bruises, as they have been reminders of my falls. More importantly, they have become reminders of my strength and courage. It takes a sucker to fall and stay down on their knees, but it takes a strong person to stand alone, wipe the tears, and know that nothing is Impossible.


"Impossible is a word in which a believer would never utter"

xoxo

Curve Ball.

Life has a tendency of throwing us a curve ball here and there. Whether it be a small mishap or a delight.. its inevitable.

I have been blessed with the opportunity to embrace my current "curve ball". I have to admit that I am truly enjoying the ride. Though the path I am walking is undetermined, I feel as though I am prepared for whatever obstacles may come.
Some may ask "Is the risk worth it?" I can only reply with "Absolutely." Some of the best times of our lives are lived within the moments least expected. I can't help but find myself with a smile lately. Every moment is like a new ride. Once the ride is over, I can't help but anticipate it's next go-around. It is truly amazing how such small insignificant things could mean the world to one person. All it takes, at times, is just a split second for things to change. Once the change occurs, you never want it to go back to what it once was. There's only moving up.

I am unaware of where this ride will take me, or where it will end. All I am certain of is that I am living in every moment of it. I haven't felt this alive in quite some time. I think curve balls are starting to suit my life style.

"The more things are forbidden, the more popular they become"

If you ask me..

I have been lucky enough to meet some spectacular people in my life. Some have made brief appearences and left huge impacts, where as other have lingered and remained vital to my everyday life.

Many times I wonder where I would be without the guest appearences. Those small significant moments are some of which made me the person I am today. From the 1st kiss to the 1st boy friend and 1st broken heart, I have grown. The kiss made me a young lady, the 1st boy friend taught me lessons on trust and loyalty. Lastly, the 1st break up made me strong enough to handle anything that came my way. Without these stepping stones, I couldn't grow. These people were just put in my life for a teaching hand, and then were faded out once my lessons were learned.

My "vital needs" entourage are the people I can't picture a day without. My family, and friends are the people who keep me grounded and focused. From my mothers love, to my best friends' advice and supporting hand, I have truly been able to over come all obstacles. My mother was there to advise me with my 1st boyfriend. My best friends' were there to hold my hand when it all fell apart. At the end of any day, you are only as strong as the support system you have pushing you to be better.

If you ask me, both "guest appearences" & the significant people have been important to my growth. After all, the worked together. Without a 1st kiss or boyfriend, what could my mother advise me on? Without a broken heart, my best friends' wouldn't have been able to mend the pieces, and show me who I am.

T&Co

I love Down The Hatch!

Their bar is filled with pieces like this.

"Come in for a Stiff one!" lol

Anticipation Is a Killer.

Inspired by a true story.. lol

Have you ever dated someone who, in your eyes, is just about the sexiest piece of meat you’ve ever laid eyes on, until they drop their jeans? Well, I know someone who knows someone (aka me) who found herself in a very sticky situation. Read on.. lol

I was “dating” a special someone who will remain nameless. I wouldn’t want to tarnish anyone’s reputation. He was tall, dark, built and handsome as hell. Every time his name was mentioned, a smile joined the conversation as well.

Our dates were eventful and always spontaneous. He seemed to have tricks up his sleeve, which kept me anticipating his next move. It was a thriller 24/7. As the “relationship” intensified, so did the sexual tension between us. It became a task to keep our little hands off one another.

Finally, on a typical Friday movie night, we sealed the deal. The weather was crummy and it was almost the perfect setting for an eventful night, but something was missing… or shall I say only half of the man I though he was, was there. Devastation would be an understatement. Never the less, we partook in the adult activities that night, but sadly, I never saw him again.

My question is, did I allow his looks to decipher his size? Is it common to confuse the 2 or was my anticipation my down fall?

Lesson Learned:
Make sure you make it to 2nd base at least before you start to actually care. lol

He's The Best I Ever Had =)

My Poconos Get-a-way!

These 2 Bottles were the problem!

Me being a chick.. lol Mani's!

Of ALL the pictures we took.. this is what made the cut.
Sorry guys.. lol

Izzy & Andrews Bday Party =)

The Birthday Cake

As you can see Ari worked hard. lmao!

As you can see in this pic.. Each of us is holding a Corona!
Now that's a child's party Dominican Style! lmao!

I'm Back (for now.. lol)

So, it's been a while since I have posted anything. Honestly, I was kind of over the whole blogging thing. But I am back by popular demand! Thanks guys.. means a lot! =)

I think an update is in order. So here goes.

1. I currently have a new love interest and no it's not a celebrity. He's someone I can get to. lol he's funny, good looking, smart and most of all... he's a hick! lmao So I'm sprung. There's nothing better than being able to dance bachata slowly & closely with a good looking fella. lol
2. I finally moved out of Bushwick aka my Hell Hole apartment. lol As you can see that's a positive!
   
3. I'm enrolled to go back to school! yay me! Time to get my geek on! I wont reveal my major because I am always changing it. So let's just leave it as I'm going back to school.
   

I think that's enough about my life for the moment.

I should be back to posting gushy lovey stuff shortly. So stay tuned! =)

Can't We All Just Get Along?

Is it me, or has it become more & more difficult to keep the peace? In my opinion, people today are more reluctant to maintain healthy relationships/friendships. Everyone is ready for some type of brawl at all times. Almost as though they have their boxing gloves on & are awaiting the sound of the bell to initiate the first round. From my personal experience, I have been surrounded by people who enjoy manipulating and/or creating uncomfortable situations solely for their personal entertainment. To me, you have to be a real pathetic individual to gain satisfaction by creating chaos in others lives. Take this as an example, I had a close friend who got involved with the wrong guy. Innocently enough she trusted him as we all did. What a mistake that was. I will not divulge all the details in which led to the chaos BUT I will say that he took things to a level in which it did not need to be taken. He created a wedge in between a friendship that was tainted but not tarnished. I have to admit though, it was not him single handed who destroyed it all. My dear "friend" played her role, as did I. Any who, it goes without saying that the 3 of us have some unfinished business in which we need to resolve. It may not happen today nor tomorrow, but the day will come. I am ready to face my demon, though I can not say the same for him. As I stated before, that day is coming.

Correction...

Apparently people have been reading my posts and taking it out of context. I just want to clarify that just because I blog about my personal experience and/or situations, doesn't not allow you, the reader, to start dialing numbers and instigating matters. 

I'm starting to believe that people have no lives. Which is OK to me... it gives me higher profile views every time you pay me a visit. =)

Just don't make something out of nothing and allow me to "fix" my own issues.. Like the 22 yr old that I am. 

xoxo you know you love me =)

 

1st Dates.. Ugh

Now that I am dating again, I find myself almost educating these fools on how to act on a date. I have been on a few first dates recently and some of the things that these guys TRIED to do left me gasping. I almost felt embarrassed and violated at the same time. 

One of my date-scapades landed me in a very small lounge in Williamsburg. The mood and scene was actually very romantic. This particular guy, however, was not as impressive. I don't think that we had intelligent conversation at any one time that entire night. All his ignorant self could talk about was how he just got this new hair gel & how many times a week he goes to the gym.

Fellas, please stop this "cocky" epidemic from spreading any further. If you have to brag about the gym, that means you're not attending as frequently as you claim. As for the hair products, we simply do not care as to whether you are using gel, mouse or whatever other fem. products. 

I mean, these guys can't be serious right?

I also had a retard try and grab the boob. I know they're out there but my god! Ask me my last name before you go grabbing at my buffet line. lol 

Anyway, just wanted to share that experience. I'll keep you all posted as to how many lames I date before I find the winner. 

Good Night =)

T&Co

Mientes Tan Bien

Que te quedaras conmigo 
Una vida entera 
Que contigo adiós inviernos 
Solo primavera 

Que las olas son de magia 
Y no de agua salada 
Yo te creo todo 
Tú no me das nada... 

Que si sigo tu camino 
Llegaré hasta el cielo 
Tú me mientes en la cara 
Y yo me vuelvo ciego 

Yo me trago tus palabras 
Tú juegas un juego 
Y me brilla el mundo 
Cuando dices luego...

Cuando dices siento 
Siento que eres todo 
Cuando dices vida 
yo estaré contigo 

Tomas de mi mano 
Y por dentro lloro 
Aunque sea mentira 
Me haces sentir vivo 
Aunque es falso el aire 
Siento que respiro 
 
Mientes tan bien 
Que me sabe a verdad 
Todo lo que me das 
Ya te estoy amando 

Mientes tan bien 
Que he llegado a imaginar 
Que mi amor llenas tu piel 
Aunque todo es de papel  
Mientes lo sé 

Sin Banderas__ 

T&Co

Quote =)

" Well behaved women never make history "

&

" I'm a sucka over the smooth slick talk "

T&Co

Process Of Elimination

Well, it's become clear that I need to eliminate a lot of garbage from life. When I say garbage I mean baggage, dead weight, time consumers, etc. I like to call this chapter of my life "SPRING CLEANING." 

I am simply at a place in my life where no one matters to me. It may seem harsh, but I finally have to think of myself. I have a small group of close friends and the love of my family. What more could someone ask for?

I just find that everyone has an agenda these days. The betrayal is inevitable, and the disappointment come by the dozen. Frankly, I'll pass. I am aware of who I can trust and depend on. When life becomes to much to bare, or boys leave me without words, I can call my girls*

Friend is a term too loosely used. It's taken some time, but with experience I have used the process of elimination to dispose of the garbage. 

Good bye to the drama.. hellooooo sanity! lmao

I feel like a weight is lifted.. =)

The Let Down

I have encountered a one night let down. 

It was magical.

It was a small taste of what we once were.

Before the fighting & the bickering,

Before the harsh words, and predictable let-downs.

Our 2-day hibernation brought me to a harsh reality though.

We can never be those two people again.

No more late nights and silly fights.

No more deep conversation and future planning. 

I have simply become the one that got away. 

He can't let go.

In a way, I don't want him to. 

I want that little secret place in his heart to have my name embedded. 

Though our little escape from the world was blissful. 

It became very bitter sweet.

I couldn't help but interrogate myself.

When will it be enough for me to walk away?

When will I stop listening to the beat of his heart..

and follow the wisdom in which I know I possess.

Through my personal attack I came to this conclusion.. 

When two people love each other..

Truthfully and Completely..

Enough will simply Never become Enough..

T&Co

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If I'm not with you right now.. I have this feeling we'll get lost out there.. It's a big bad world out there filled with twists and turns.. and people have a way of blinking and missing the moment.. The moment that could have changed everything.. I don't know why you should take the leap of faith with us.. But you smell good to me.. Like Home..

.. Next thing I knew, I wanted to spend the rest of my life in that conversation..